Our souls plead.
This semester has been rather...surreal.
We have begun to master the technique of putting on a facade in front of our own classmates, only to bitch about them when their backs are turned.
Who we once considered friends, are now objects of scorn and playthings of our emotions.
They open their arms to give and to accept hugs, only to use those same loving hands to spite that same person.
They snuggle close to us, only to tell our secrets to the rest.
What's with all the negative competition, people?
Please......
Can't we all be friendly? Can't we all be happy with each others' success? I'm sure we can, so why the ill-will? Why the negative emotion? Why the hurtful words, the spiteful competition?
Can't we encourage each other to strive for the best? We are all here to learn. Or are we here to engage in cut-throat competition?
We all have different agendas. But where school is concerned, we are here to receive an education. Which explains why I've been offering help and sharing my resources with everyone. I've been wrongly judged as trying to be a bootlicker or a cunning strategist for doing this, but I'll continue to do so. Because I want all of us to succeed. Why? Because we are here to learn, and because we're all in this together.
I have been told that I've become very reserved this semester. But why is that? Tell me - whenever one talks to another from class, how sure can one be that the other person really respects you as a person? How sure can you be that that person wouldn't use what you say against you, or to bitch about you to others?
Please...
We're a class full of great people. Seriously. This group of people has made me smile. Unfortunately, it has angered me as well. It's a continuous process.
I don't regret being in this class. I personally feel it's filled with beautiful, wonderful people. But what I regret is that these very people are turning against each other.
And that, unfortunately, includes me. I've been hurt and offended too many times to care about a few.
But I'll continue holding on to the vestiges of hope...that we will come together, that we will be filled with love for one another, and that we care.
I'm done, but not out.
Chonte.
[5:08 pm]
I miss you <33
